Things are changing in my life. When I started this blog, I was in a really good place in my marriage. I felt like the things I was blogging about were helping me build a stronger marriage, as well as helping others do the same. Also, as I’ve said, I really wanted to get something positive about sex and LDS people out there for people to see other than the mostly crap I’d found online.
A nice person commented that he thought Conan and I had a great relationship. I replied that we had had lots of ups and downs in our marriage and this was a great upswing that I hoped would and expected to continue. Unfortunately, that has not been the case.
Things started going downhill last September. The next nine months were the tipping point for me. It was in late May and June that things completely broke down. I’m not going to go into any detail about our situation other than to state that things are essentially over for us. I don’t take lightly all the years of our marriage, and I’m not making any hasty decisions, but I see no future anymore for Conan and me. I also want to make clear that this is not due to infidelity.
Why am I telling you all this? Well, I don’t know how to go on with my blog anymore. I love my blog! I love the people who come here, read and comment. I still believe in marriage and good sex in marriage. However, I can’t hold my own marriage up as an example anymore. I feel slightly hypocritical. Have more sex! Have good sex! It will help your marriage! I have been saying. And now my own marriage is basically dead.
Well, I still feel that everything I’ve said is true. There are so many other factors that have mixed together to bring me to this place I am in now. Plus, I’m still LDS, I’m still a woman, and I still like to talk about sex. So I’m going to continue with my blog, I just won’t be using current examples of Conan and me to make my points.
I appreciate everyone who comes to my blog, reads and comments. I feel that I’ve made a few friends and I’m happy about that, too! Thanks so much! And look for more posts from me…I’m not done blogging!